I feel like crying

Normally why a person will cry, not talking about those happy then cry tt type la. I think it's because he think that he's very kelian, no other people understand how bad he's feeling, no one sympathise him, therefore he feels very 委屈 and thus he cries.

For example, when you are young, when you fall, you think about it, issit because you feel damn painful that's y you cry? No!!! It's because you think you fall and no one know how pain you feel and in turns no one come and comfort you, therefore you think you very kelian and you cry.

When you close one pass away why u cry? Because u know you wont be seeing that person anymore, therefore you feel that you are very kelian therefore you cry.

Therefore when other people comforts you, normally in a way that showing they understand how you feel, you will stop crying.

Basically human are selfish lots. They will only cry for themselves.

Anyway i dunno why i talking all these rubbish. What i wanna write today is that I really feel like crying today. Cos i think no one will understand how bad i'm feeling. And i feel damn sad and 委屈 right now. KNN...

Ok for this semester, i was damn lazy. Out of the 5 modules, i only took 2 seriously, which is econs and computing. Basically i heck care electrical engineering, physics and maths. What i mean by taking seriously means i attending all the lectures and tutorials.

For computing i do even more. I would attempt to write numerous programs and so on. Becos i tot programming is damn fun. Today is the practical exam for programming. In the past weeks i actually tried all the past 2 sems practical exam question which is around 8-10, i cant remember. They were like so easy and i can on average complete 1 in around 1hour 15min when the time given is around 1hr 45 min. But for today, the question for the practical is damn fucked up. The instructions are so unclear and nobody knows what they're talking about.

I think i didn't do well for the prac. I feel damn demoralised. Why past year qns so simple thn this year so diff? Some might say if i suffered all suffered. But then computing prac is not all attempt the same qns. There're 4 shifts, who knows whether i can do the qns in other shifts or not. I think it's a damn screwed up system to test programming cos your life depends on 1 qns alone. Do or die. Actually i dunno what i am typing about, but then i was damn demoralised and sad. I was actually hoping computing can get A so can pull my physics grades which i expect to flunk like shit. Now seems like i need other subject to pull up my phy as well as comp also. But my other sub also 自生難保.

Then i think i was already damn suay for doing badly for computing when i was actually quite confident. Then on my way home when i just boarded 99, walking up to the 2nd floor, the fucker bus-driver suddenly jerked his cheebye bus so suddenly cos he not slowing down at the hump. KNN.

My left leg was supposed to take the nxt step up, instead it dropped 3 steps down cos of the jerk and my right leg also sahked out of position, causing my right shin to hit the edge of the steps. Now there's a baluku as big as a strawberry. KNN. Then the side of both my big toes was scratched badly, got moderately deep cuts, bleeding. Then as those who played soccer will know, we sometimes have black toenail cos there's blodd clog in btw the nails and the toes. Then my left toe is this condition, and it was hit dunno where la, then blood was gushing out fomr btw the nails.

Oh ya, and that fucker bus-driver didn't bother to stop and keep on driving his cheebye bus.

I slowly picked up myself and walked up, find a seat. Then starting to wiped away the blood from 3 wounds(both cuts from side of toes, in btw nails of left toe). As i was wiping the blood, looking at the baluku grow in size, feeling the pain, thinking back of the screwed up comp prac today. I really feel that i was damn 可憐 today. Damn 委屈. Really feeling like crying.

Haiz.... but of course i didn't cry la. If not the pple on the bus will think that i was crying because i fall down. damn xia suay one lor... but really feel liek crying.... damn sad....